{"id":16444,"date":"2026-04-13T10:30:52","date_gmt":"2026-04-13T10:30:52","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.tukid.org\/?page_id=16444"},"modified":"2026-04-13T11:52:39","modified_gmt":"2026-04-13T11:52:39","slug":"aysen-ogretmenin-kalemi","status":"publish","type":"page","link":"https:\/\/www.tukid.org\/en\/kalem-alani\/aysen-ogretmenin-kalemi\/","title":{"rendered":"Ay\u015fen \u00d6\u011fretmen’in Kalemi"},"content":{"rendered":"
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\n\t\t\t\t\tPROF. DR. MUH\u0130TT\u0130N \u015e\u0130M\u015eEK'\u0130N KALEM\u0130NDEN<\/span>

<\/span>Ay\u015fen \u00d6\u011fretmen'in Kalemi<\/span><\/span><\/h2><\/div>

\u0130nsano\u011flunu \u015fekillendiren iki insan vard\u0131r:
\nDo\u011far do\u011fmaz hissetti\u011fi, sinesinde g\u00fcven buldu\u011fu anne, Ailenin d\u0131\u015f\u0131nda, cemiyete haz\u0131rlanmak i\u00e7in kuca\u011f\u0131na s\u0131\u011f\u0131nd\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z; bilgimizi, erdemimizi, ahlak\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 ve hayat\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n kalan k\u0131sm\u0131nda birikimlerimizin temelinin at\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131 ilkokuldaki \u00f6\u011fretmenimiz. Her \u015feyimizdir o. Art\u0131k anne baba de\u011fil \u201c\u00d6\u011fretmenim \u00f6yle s\u00f6yledi.\u201d denir.
\n\u201c\u00d6\u011fretmen bilir, \u00f6\u011fretmen yapar, o korur...\u201d
\nO ne dediyse odur, \u00e7ocu\u011fun g\u00f6z\u00fcnde. Hele sevmi\u015fse \u00f6\u011fretmenini, g\u00fcveni tam olmu\u015fsa. D\u00fcnya ile ba\u015f edebilen Zalo\u011flu R\u00fcstem\u2019dir adeta o minik yavrunun g\u00f6z\u00fcnde.
\nBu kadar \u00f6nemlidir, mini\u011fin \u00e2leminde o\u2026<\/p>\n<\/div><\/div>\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t

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\u00d6\u011fretmenlerimiz vard\u0131.
\nEvden g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm\u00fcz tezekle ve odunla, daha biz girmeden sobay\u0131 yak\u0131p s\u0131n\u0131f\u0131 s\u0131cac\u0131k yapan. \u00c7antas\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131\u011f\u0131 mendili ile akan burnumuzu silen. Af buyurunuz, zaruri ihtiya\u00e7lar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 gidermemize yard\u0131mc\u0131 olan. Ak\u015fam oturmalar\u0131nda evimizde anne babam\u0131zla bizi konu\u015fan \u00f6\u011fretmenlerimiz...
\n\u201cYavrum!!!\u201d deyi\u015fi, yaralanan dizimize pe-re-ja kolonyas\u0131 s\u00fcrd\u00fckten sonra \u00fcfleyi\u015fi. Anam\u0131zla \u00f6zde\u015f \u00f6\u011fretmenlerimiz.<\/p>\n

Toprak daml\u0131, kerpi\u00e7 evlerde oturmalar\u0131n\u0131 dert etmezlerdi onlar. E\u011fitimde \u201cceza-\u00f6d\u00fcl\u201d ili\u015fkisini \u00e7ok iyi bilirlerdi, her zaman \u00e7antalar\u0131nda sizi mutlu edecek k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck s\u00fcrpriz hediyeleri vard\u0131. \u0130mk\u00e2ns\u0131zl\u0131k i\u00e7inde, imk\u00e2n olu\u015ftururlard\u0131. Okulun, s\u0131n\u0131f\u0131n bak\u0131m\u0131n\u0131, boya badanas\u0131n\u0131 onlar yaparlard\u0131, eyl\u00fcl girmeden. Tertemiz giysileri, a\u011f\u0131r vakur y\u00fcr\u00fcy\u00fc\u015fleri, taral\u0131 sa\u00e7lar\u0131, bak\u0131ml\u0131 bembeyaz di\u015fleri vard\u0131. Sigara i\u00e7tiklerini g\u00f6rmezdik onlar\u0131n. Oyun oynarlard\u0131 minik \u00f6\u011frencileri ile; yakan top, voleybol... Psikolojimizi bilirlerdi. \u00dcz\u00fcld\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fc anlarlar, incitmeden s\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131lar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 \u00f6\u011frenirlerdi. K\u0131rsal kesimin ebeveyni utanga\u00e7t\u0131r, okula gelmezler, onlar giderdi anne babam\u0131za...
\n\u00d6\u011fretmenlerimiz vard\u0131... Ayakkab\u0131s\u0131 delik, elbisesi y\u0131rt\u0131k \u00e7ocuklar\u0131 giydiren.<\/p>\n<\/div><\/div>\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t

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B\u00f6yle bir \u00f6\u011fretmenim vard\u0131 benim. \u0130lkokulun ilk iki s\u0131n\u0131f\u0131nda: Ay\u015fen \u00d6\u011fretmen.
\nBir soruya verdi\u011fim cevap ho\u015funa gitmi\u015fti de, kare bir silgi ile yar\u0131s\u0131 mavi, di\u011fer yar\u0131s\u0131 k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 olan bir kur\u015fun kalem hediye etmi\u015fti bana. Kullanmad\u0131m o silgiyi, kullanamad\u0131m. Anam\u0131n sand\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131n bir k\u00f6\u015fesine saklam\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. <\/p>\n

Kalem mi?
\nAhh! O kalem yok mu, o kalem? Neler a\u00e7t\u0131 ba\u015f\u0131ma bir bilseniz!
\nEve geldim.
\nHeyecanla daha evvel babamdan g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm \u015feyi yapmaya kalkt\u0131m.
\nAbimin kalemlerini jilet ile a\u00e7ard\u0131 babam.
\nBen de babam\u0131n jiletini ald\u0131m. <\/p>\n<\/div><\/div>\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t

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T\u0131pk\u0131 onun gibi g\u00f6zlerimi k\u0131st\u0131m, daha birinci seferde jilet \u015fahadet parma\u011f\u0131m\u0131n k\u00f6k\u00fcndeki kemi\u011fe dayand\u0131. Minik elim kan i\u00e7inde kalm\u0131\u015f, korkumdan babama de\u011fil anneme ko\u015fmu\u015ftum. Hemen ba\u015f\u00f6rt\u00fcs\u00fc ile (Ahmediyesi ile -Suriye\u2019den gelirdi. Sar\u0131, ipeksi bir ba\u015f\u00f6rt\u00fcs\u00fc-) bast\u0131rd\u0131 parma\u011f\u0131ma. Sonra sard\u0131 sarmalad\u0131. Uzun s\u00fcre iyile\u015femedi. Yara mikrop kapm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. \u015eimdi h\u00e2l\u00e2 o yaray\u0131, kalem sevgimin ilk ni\u015fanesi olarak sa\u011f ba\u015fparma\u011f\u0131m\u0131n tam k\u00f6k\u00fcnde ta\u015f\u0131r\u0131m.<\/p>\n

Her neyse\u2026
\nKalemi de anam\u0131n tek \u00f6zel e\u015fyalar\u0131n\u0131 saklad\u0131\u011f\u0131 tahta sand\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131n en dibine, silginin hemen yan\u0131 ba\u015f\u0131na koydum. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc en g\u00fcvenli yer oras\u0131 idi.
\nO sand\u0131k, ah o sand\u0131k!
\nNe g\u00fczel kokard\u0131 o\u2026 Kekik desem de\u011fil, amber ya da misk.
\nBilmem ki ne idi o.
\nY\u0131llarca o kokuyu burnumda hissettim, h\u00e2l\u00e2 hissederim. Ama san\u0131r\u0131m son zamanlarda buldum o kokuyu.
\nAna kokusu\u2026<\/p>\n<\/div><\/div>\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t

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S\u0131n\u0131f ba\u015fkan\u0131yd\u0131m ve g\u00f6zdesiydim Ay\u015fen \u00d6\u011fretmen\u2019in. Ak\u015fam\u0131n olmas\u0131n\u0131, tatilin gelmesini istemiyordum. \u00c7ok \u00e7ocuklu bir ailenin bireyi olmakl\u0131ktan kaynakl\u0131 esas ilgiyi \u00f6\u011fretmenimde buluyordum. \u00d6yle ki; ona k\u00fcs\u00fcyor, nazlan\u0131yordum. O \u00fcz\u00fcl\u00fcnce \u00fcz\u00fcl\u00fcp, sevince seviniyordum. En \u00e7ok da M\u00fczik dersinde \u201cEmine\u2019m, Emine\u2019m k\u00f6y\u00fcm\u00fcn g\u00fczeli. Ba\u011flara gel Emine\u2019m\u201d \u015fark\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n nakarat k\u0131sm\u0131nda elimizden tutarak halka \u015feklinde bizi d\u00f6nd\u00fcrmesini severdim. Okumay\u0131 ilk s\u00f6kt\u00fc\u011f\u00fcmde mektup yazd\u0131rm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 bana Tekirda\u011f\u2019da asker olan Celal abiye... <\/p>\n

Bir keresinde and\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 okurken siyah \u00f6nl\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm\u00fcn d\u00fc\u011fmesi kopmu\u015ftu da yere d\u00fc\u015fen d\u00fc\u011fmeyi alm\u0131\u015f, i\u011fne iplik \u00e7\u0131kar\u0131p d\u00fc\u011fmemi dikmi\u015fti... \u0130kinci s\u0131n\u0131fta \u00f6\u011fretmenimiz yine Ay\u015fen \u00d6\u011fretmen\u2019di. Her \u015fey g\u00fczel gidiyordu. Ne olduysa Nisan ay\u0131n\u0131n sonunda oldu... Ay\u015fen \u00d6\u011fretmen, bir g\u00fcn dersin sonunda \u201cHaydi \u00e7ocuklar, foto\u011fraf\u00e7\u0131 geldi. D\u0131\u015far\u0131da toplu foto\u011fraf \u00e7ektirece\u011fiz...\u201d dedi. Neden, ni\u00e7in diyemedik. Tedirginli\u011fimizi anlad\u0131 ve tayininin \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 s\u00f6yledi. Me\u011fer o g\u00fcn son dersimizmi\u015f... O an bir \u00e7ocu\u011fun ya\u015fayabilece\u011fi en b\u00fcy\u00fck travmay\u0131 ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 hat\u0131rl\u0131yorum. Do\u011frusu sadece ben de\u011fil, hemen b\u00fct\u00fcn s\u0131n\u0131f...
\nG\u00fcnlerce \u00fcz\u00fclm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fcm (a\u011flad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 s\u00f6ylemeyeyim).<\/p>\n<\/div><\/div>\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t

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Y\u0131llar ge\u00e7ti. Her akl\u0131ma geldi\u011finde anam\u0131n sand\u0131\u011f\u0131na saklad\u0131\u011f\u0131m silgiye ve kaleme bak\u0131yordum \u00e7ocuk akl\u0131 ile...
\nAnam\u0131 erken kaybettim.
\nO \u00f6ld\u00fc\u011f\u00fcnde onun sand\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 kimler payla\u015ft\u0131 bilmiyorum.
\nSilgim kay\u0131p olmu\u015ftu, ama kalem \u015f\u00fck\u00fcr ki duruyordu.
\nNereye gitti isem g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fcm onu. Kayseri\u2019ye yat\u0131l\u0131 okula gittim, yan\u0131mda idi.
\n\u0130stanbul\u2019a \u00fcniversiteye geldim, yan\u0131mda idi.
\n\u0130ngiltere\u2019ye gittim. Bir pasaportum vard\u0131, bir de Ay\u015fen \u00f6\u011fretmenimin kalemi\u2026
\nEvlendim, \u00e7oluk \u00e7ocu\u011fa kar\u0131\u015ft\u0131m, para kazanmaya, kalem biriktirmeye ba\u015flad\u0131m, o hep muhafaza alt\u0131nda idi. <\/p>\n

\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc onu, Ay\u015fen \u00d6\u011fretmen\u2019imin izini kaybetmi\u015ftim. Anam\u0131 yitirmi\u015ftim, ama onun ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, en az\u0131ndan tahmin ediyordum. \u0130kinci anne olarak g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm Ay\u015fen \u00f6\u011fretmeni bir g\u00fcn bulacakt\u0131m.<\/p>\n

Dedim ya\u2026
\n\u0130zini kaybettik Ay\u015fen \u00f6\u011fretmenin. Bir bebe\u011fi vard\u0131, ad\u0131 Cihangir...
\nB\u00fcy\u00fcd\u00fck, \u00fcniversite bitirdik, \u00e7oluk \u00e7ocu\u011fa kar\u0131\u015ft\u0131k. Orta ya\u015fa geldik. \u00c7ocuklar\u0131ma masal diye \u201cAy\u015fen \u00d6\u011fretmen\u201di anlatt\u0131m hep.
\nOnlar\u0131n; \u201cBaba o nerde \u015fimdi?\u201d sorusuna hep ka\u00e7amak cevap verdim.<\/p>\n<\/div><\/div>\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t

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Ge\u00e7en g\u00fcn, Cihangir\u2019i buldum sosyal medyadan. Sonra telefonunu. \u0130\u015f adam\u0131 olmu\u015f. Annesini, yani \u00f6\u011fretmenimi sordum. \u201cYan\u0131mda, vereyim mi telefona!\u201d dedi. 40 y\u0131l \u00f6nceki ses, \u201cYavrum!\u201d dedi bana.
\nBen a\u011flad\u0131m, o a\u011flad\u0131...
\nY\u0131llar sonra,
\nHo\u015f geldin ye\u015fil-k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 kalemin sahibi,
\nHo\u015f geldin \u00e7ocuklar\u0131m\u0131n masal kahraman\u0131,
\nHo\u015f geldin hayat\u0131m\u0131za Ay\u015fen \u00d6\u011fretmen\u2019im...<\/p>\n<\/div><\/div>\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t<\/section>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

PROF. DR. MUH\u0130TT\u0130N \u015e\u0130M\u015eEK’\u0130N KALEM\u0130NDEN Ay\u015fen \u00d6\u011fretmen’in Kalemi \u0130nsano\u011flunu \u015fekillendiren iki insan vard\u0131r: Do\u011far do\u011fmaz hissetti\u011fi, sinesinde g\u00fcven buldu\u011fu anne, Ailenin d\u0131\u015f\u0131nda, cemiyete haz\u0131rlanmak i\u00e7in kuca\u011f\u0131na s\u0131\u011f\u0131nd\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z; bilgimizi, erdemimizi, ahlak\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 ve hayat\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n kalan k\u0131sm\u0131nda birikimlerimizin temelinin at\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131 ilkokuldaki \u00f6\u011fretmenimiz. Her \u015feyimizdir o. Art\u0131k anne baba de\u011fil \u201c\u00d6\u011fretmenim \u00f6yle s\u00f6yledi.\u201d denir. \u201c\u00d6\u011fretmen bilir, \u00f6\u011fretmen yapar, o…<\/p>","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"parent":16442,"menu_order":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","template":"","meta":{"footnotes":""},"class_list":["post-16444","page","type-page","status-publish","hentry"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.tukid.org\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/pages\/16444","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.tukid.org\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/pages"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.tukid.org\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/page"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.tukid.org\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.tukid.org\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=16444"}],"version-history":[{"count":7,"href":"https:\/\/www.tukid.org\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/pages\/16444\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":16453,"href":"https:\/\/www.tukid.org\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/pages\/16444\/revisions\/16453"}],"up":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.tukid.org\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/pages\/16442"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.tukid.org\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=16444"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}